Getting Better

Luke is *finally* getting better! I'm so thankful! (I'm sure he is, too!) However, he has been awake an insane amount of time today! As is typical, I made a poor decision last night and stayed up watching Narnia by myself. (Great movie, BTW! Not for young kids, though, IMO.) So, I am completely exhausted and have fallen asleep several times today just sitting here at the computer. I can't wait to go to sleep. And I'm not staying up later than the kids tonight!

We go to NE for my grandpa's 80th birthday in less than 2 weeks. That's sure coming up quickly! We'll be driving there in one day, staying there 3 nights, spending the next night in a hotel to celebrate my birthday :D and heading home the next day. I'm looking forward to it. I know my parents are really anxious to see the kids. They want us to bring pictures, too. I'm so very bad about sending pics to the grandparents and it's not really fair to them because they see them so seldom and then not even get pics... But I'm *such* a procrastinator. Unfortunately, there are a lot of things that just don't get done: house cleaning, birthday cards or gifts, getting some of Katie's toys (that were gifts) out of their package, etc. I think the thing that causes the most stress and hassle for us, though, is the huge amount of clutter in our house. Many things don't have a home and the things that do don't get put back there. Ugh. There's typically so much that I get overwhelmed thinking about it and am not sure where to start. I worry that I can't do a good enough job cleaning. My anxiety and OCD affect my reaction to it, I know. I think I'd rather stop thinking about it now. DH and I are going to write down some thoughts and guidelines for us to follow, to help take care of and prevent the clutter. Let's hope it works!

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need. You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law. While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top. You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

I'm having a horrible day.

I'm worried about the impact on my kids of my unhealthy eating and turbulent emotional state.

Katie had an emotional outburst today that I didn't know how to deal with. She's 4.5 and she said today, when Luke and I came down from our nap, that she didn't think her friends ever think about her. Then, she said she saw the mommy of one of her friends outside and she banged on the window, but she didn't see her. I thought this was all very odd. Apparently, she saw the mom who lives across the street over by her house and banged on the window on our front door to try to get her attention. Odd. I told her I was sure she didn't hear her. Then, she was talking about different friends she wants to play with. We just played with some of her friends this past weekend, but, other than that, we haven't been with other families very much. I feel kind of guilty for that because I didn't realize it was affecting her that much. I feel like an awful mom that my child was crying about that. It seems so unlike her.

Luke was writhing and screaming just a little bit ago. It could be because I was trying wheat on him again. I don't know. No idea. Feel terrible.

Didn't get anything done around the house today.

The upheaval on my favorite message board is bothering me today. And I haven't heard from one of my friends in a while and don't know what's going on with her or when she'll be back.

I have an extremely small amount of self-control.

I just want to cry. I want to run away. I might cry, but I won't leave.