I'm having a horrible day.
I'm worried about the impact on my kids of my unhealthy eating and turbulent emotional state.
Katie had an emotional outburst today that I didn't know how to deal with. She's 4.5 and she said today, when Luke and I came down from our nap, that she didn't think her friends ever think about her. Then, she said she saw the mommy of one of her friends outside and she banged on the window, but she didn't see her. I thought this was all very odd. Apparently, she saw the mom who lives across the street over by her house and banged on the window on our front door to try to get her attention. Odd. I told her I was sure she didn't hear her. Then, she was talking about different friends she wants to play with. We just played with some of her friends this past weekend, but, other than that, we haven't been with other families very much. I feel kind of guilty for that because I didn't realize it was affecting her that much. I feel like an awful mom that my child was crying about that. It seems so unlike her.
Luke was writhing and screaming just a little bit ago. It could be because I was trying wheat on him again. I don't know. No idea. Feel terrible.
Didn't get anything done around the house today.
The upheaval on my favorite message board is bothering me today. And I haven't heard from one of my friends in a while and don't know what's going on with her or when she'll be back.
I have an extremely small amount of self-control.
I just want to cry. I want to run away. I might cry, but I won't leave.
I'm worried about the impact on my kids of my unhealthy eating and turbulent emotional state.
Katie had an emotional outburst today that I didn't know how to deal with. She's 4.5 and she said today, when Luke and I came down from our nap, that she didn't think her friends ever think about her. Then, she said she saw the mommy of one of her friends outside and she banged on the window, but she didn't see her. I thought this was all very odd. Apparently, she saw the mom who lives across the street over by her house and banged on the window on our front door to try to get her attention. Odd. I told her I was sure she didn't hear her. Then, she was talking about different friends she wants to play with. We just played with some of her friends this past weekend, but, other than that, we haven't been with other families very much. I feel kind of guilty for that because I didn't realize it was affecting her that much. I feel like an awful mom that my child was crying about that. It seems so unlike her.
Luke was writhing and screaming just a little bit ago. It could be because I was trying wheat on him again. I don't know. No idea. Feel terrible.
Didn't get anything done around the house today.
The upheaval on my favorite message board is bothering me today. And I haven't heard from one of my friends in a while and don't know what's going on with her or when she'll be back.
I have an extremely small amount of self-control.
I just want to cry. I want to run away. I might cry, but I won't leave.
posted by Maggie at 3:31 PM
4 Comments:
((((Maggie))))
oh...don't be so hard on yourself. Often children will say things because they are bored out of their mind! Also try not to try so hard to be supermom. Even with GBD it is easy to have unrealistic expectaions of just how great a mom you're gonna be. Instead take it a day at a time and pray for wisdom to help the situation. Children also don't always fit into a mold. noy even the gcm kind.
ps.I changed my blog to invite only so if you're interested pm on gcm with your email addy and I'l send you one!
Hugs to you dear. I hope things are looking up today!
Oh, Maggie, I know what you mean. But I think little girls can be so dramatic and say things that we can take too seriously especially when we are feeling down on ourselves.
In the long run, we can only do what we can do....so much of parenting books and experts make us think that each and every little thing we do has such a huge impact and we want to think that because we want out jobs to mean something
BUT life is a long process. Scientists are discovering that the human brain is more plastic than they thought, meaning that the brainkeeps changing and learning in adulthood. Personality and that isn't always set by age six or whatever parenting people say.
(((hugs)))
otoh, if you think she would like to be around more people, look into vacation bible school, or sunday school or something where you don't have to go make friends in order for your child to have friends. I know how annoying tha can be!
Oh, btw, if you can't tell from the bossiness, this is Marsha aka ainsleesmommy.
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