The kids are sick. Poor Luke finds it hard to breathe while nursing and Katie's little lips and nose are chapped. :( Finally up by myself, I'd like to watch at least part of a movie right now, but I feel I'd better sleep while I have the chance. Luke is not sleeping well at all because he's not feeling well and his sleeping wasn't even that great before he got sick, as he's working on some teeth. :(

I sure love Katie. I'm trying to make more of a concerted effort to find ways to bond with Katie because I get so distracted with Luke...

Ugh, Luke's awake.

A little later.
Of course, I love both of the kids tremendously! It's just that sometimes I feel an irritation with Katie and I know it's unfair. She's still so little. She needs her mommy, too, but often I just have no patience with her. :( So, I'm trying to deliberately take more time with her and to connect with her. I'm probably not doing it enough, but it still counts for something, right? It's so hard being a mom. I have so much trouble with two kids; I don't want to have anymore. I really don't. I'm thrilled to have the ones I have; believe me! I just don't see how I could mentally handle having to care for more, especially with Katie and Luke still so little. Brian and I often say we feel our quiver is full. I do believe we would be open to having more if we felt God calling us to it.