Ugh...

My poor sweetie. He's working on his 8th tooth and possibly a molar or two. He's miserable. :( And Katie...I was was having a hard time controlling my anger last night. It's just so hard when she fights and fights sleep like she does. I see she's about to fall over yet she won't sleep, she throws things, she's loud when I'm trying to put Luke to sleep. Argh!!!! I have an anger problem, though, I know, and no matter what she does, I need to stay calm and gentle. I have the book When Anger Hurts Your Kids and I plan to read it sometime soon.

I need to go to sleep. I'm sore from sitting here in the this computer chair for so long. I want to get back on GCM! There's responses to my posts and everything. And the ILs are coming tomorrow and we have lots to do. I think we can get the place presentable enough by the time they get here. It's stressful, though. I so hope to someday soon get on some sort of a relaxed schedule (not TOO relaxed, though!) so I can actually maintain rather than just do emergency upkeep when it's absolutely essential and when it's gotten really bad. Ugh. Blah.

I'm a bit depressed. Not really sure why. Desire deep friendships, but don't seem to have the energy/motivation to actively seek or maintain them. I don't know why. :( And I haven't had the comfort of close companionship with the Lord since I haven't been spending any time with Him. I know He's still there, but my soul craves a more intimate relationship. I feel lonely. :(